Project: Life Change. Of course. That is, change of course.

My priorities have shifted in the last month because, as I've mentioned here vaguely, we've had some turmoil in our home. And really, that is like saying parenting is hard when sometimes it feels absolutely handleable and the next moment, insurmountable. I wrote a bit about what we're are trying to move through here.

This is tough for me to write about here because it is not all mine. But several of you have kindly asked me if I am OK and even more kindly, asked my mom if I am OK. The answer is: I am trying.

I am trying to take care of myself because it is important for me and because I understand (now) that it is the best thing I can do as a mother. I am reaching out to my friends (thank you) and my parents (and thank you) and even to my blogging friends (and also you). I am reading good stuff and praying and tonight, I am going to get back to meditating because it helps my fast-forward-prone mind just rest.

And tomorrow, I am taking the day off guilt-free and going to lunch with my grrrlfriend Molls who, by the way, is getting married in March. I want to help her pick out a cake but I also want to bask in a bit of that boundless joy. I might even order a drink. After that, we're going to a movie. In the middle of the day.   

My Project: Life Change has taken an unexpected turn, or perhaps more accurately, veered way out on some frontage road I don't recognize yet. But I have not forgotten my commitment to myself and I have not forgotten all the hard work and questions and challenges and good stuff going on with many of you.  But let's not forget that even the most industrious, ambitious, A students among us need a break. Even from the release.